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Wednesday, 29 April 2009

  • My Job As a VoLunteer

    last night i met some old friends of mine
    i was excited to meet them again
    some of them already graduated and the others just a step from
    graduating
    after a little chitchat, we've came to the topic about job.
    then i said that i had a part time job, as a volunteer on
    Red District Projects.
    and they were saying like, "yeah, that kind of job is soo
    typically you." and they gave the 'underestimate look' by rolling
    their eyes and laughs.
    i was stunned.
    i thinked, "what's wrong with 'that kind' of job?"
    is there something funny of being a volunteer that work with
    real prostitutes at red district areas??
    i dont think so!

    the same thing happened to me when i got my first job as a
    volunteer at NGO that brought issues about HIV/AIDS.
    most all of my friends that i've been told about my job
    were giving me the same acts and words, like
    "why would you even want to do 'that kind' of job?"

    why not??
    they're real people.
    they're human.
    they do hv feelings.
    they eat the same foods like we do.
    they breath the same air with us.
    why underestimate them just because of their choice of work?

    and they started to talk about religion, sins and stuffs
    and at some points they finally spilled out the main issue:
    "their job's againts all of what we studied in here. The faculty of
    law. we're law student! we should uphold the law. blah blah blah"

    well, friends, sorry to say this
    but working with the minority people is my honor.
    im proud to know and actually communicate with them,
    listen to their life-story actually inspired me to be a better
    person.

    IF they can hv another job, they wouldnt be what they are now.
    nobody wants to be a prostitute
    nobody wants to be a child of a prostitute
    nobody wants to live under the bridge, working their ass off
    just to be able to eat for today.

    the differences between us (the frikkin law students) were
    we're lucky to be born from a parents that had better job and
    they chose to live as they are now.

    im sorry if im not like other 'law students'
    i do love my job as a volunteer, and im proud of it!

Thursday, 16 April 2009

  • the perfect silence

    i dont need your pity
    i dont need you fake smile
    nor your emphaty
    nor your dime

    i have choose my path
    and there will be no regret
    every breath i take choked me
    i tried to scream but the voice wont come out

    shed your tears mother
    please cry no more because of me
    for i am broken since birth
    for all the mercy and love you've gave me
    i thank you
    i cant give you more than just word
    cause words are all i have now

    i have learnt pain long before you even learn to breath

    as i lay my head
    embrace the cold brick on my skin
    i realize
    i spent all my life to accept pain
    but i feel soo tire now
    i need to sleep
    cast all my sorrow to the wind
    cast all this pain to the star above

    so i kissed my mother goodnight
    as gently embraced my perfect silence

Monday, 13 April 2009

  • a confession of lonely Jndrl #1 : im a cafe addict

    i loooveee to hangout in cafe especially with xenia,, my best cafe mate :D
    it's the main reason why i always drain my ATM soo fast T____T
    but the heck ,, i just love~ love~ hangout in cafe~

    our fevorites cafe are Empire Diner, Own Cafe and Chocolate cafe
    both Empire and Chocolate have wifi connection
    though, Own is the most comfortable place
    it has a good espresso for Xe and yumm-o french fries for me

    lemme tell ya what's the minus` and plus` for these cafes..

    Own: nice cozy outdoor bench, no wifi though, but we just love the environment, it's quite and peaceful (except when the home-band nite -- it will be soo crowded and noisy) and it only open around 5PM

    Empire Diner: open 24/7, comfortable sofa, excellent wifi connection, delicious foods and beverages but the songs on their playlist is somehow awful >___<;;

    Chocolate Cafe: a place when we creavin for chocolate~ love love love their cakes~ wifi's okay, the outdoor view's not bad -- we can see the main street and all it's traffic problematics etc -- but, Xe said the espresso disguisting ,, well, i dont really know how or where the differences coz espresso is a big NO for me, it;s too bitter,, im a sweet-tooth kind of person =3

    aah,, i'll be ryte back with other confessions =D

Sunday, 12 April 2009

  • from Billy

    there's a guy that im seeing for almost 2 months
    and somehow, one day when we went to our favorite cafe,
    he wrote something on the napkin,

    "if loving you is wrong, then i dont want to be right.
    cause all i've ever wanted was to sleep on your lap.
    So if you really love me, then say it now...

    and if someday you feel bored of me,
    i just want you to know,
    that i will die the second you turn your heart from me."

    after i read it, i just stud..
    how can i answer it if my heart hasnt cure yet?

  • Easter 2009

    Agnus Dei,,
    qui tollis peccata mundi
    miserere nobis,,

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